Memories In Print

I fell in love with you earlier
then I have admitted to. 
The first few messages and I was hooked.
I played along
as if sarcastic
but inside I was terrified that after meeting
this would continue to be a joke for you
and I would be left behind in serious lust.

The way you spoke to me, 
so tender yet so forceful
the words you used to describe yourself
memories of meeting,
why I found the idea of a joint or two 
so romantic I will never know.

Now I’m sitting in your chair
wearing your pants, 
resting my head on your bed
amazed at how this life
has created such a beautiful monster. 

We have become more than anyone
could have ever expected, 
and for that
I grant you credit
for I will hold none of the blame 
that is not blame but gratitude 
towards you.

Beautiful Monster by Kassandra Jennex is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.

Late night, 
Early day, 
Watching the starlight,
As it passes me by.
Hard days,
Good nights,
Watching your shadow,
As it catches my eye.
Why are you here?
Why don’t you leave?
Don’t you know 
I will never be enough?
I don’t feel like I can face you,
Though I wish I could,
My mind heart feels like an empty space
I know with you I could fill it.
If I close my eyes
Will I fall asleep?
Or will I just stay awake 
Wondering how long this can last;
If I was right to jump in,
Right to take a chance. 
So the cracks in the ceiling 
look just like life
Jagged on the edges,
but the insides are smooth
Maybe that means that I can’t lose?
Or are we too close for comfort
With no spaces in between,
I don’t know where to take this.
I never had to think about how to act
When things got this good 
Because things never were this good.

Starlights by Kassandra Jennex is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.